By Anonymous on Mon 4 Feb 2002 at 10:37
This is a very taboo subject which results in many men feeling very confused and isolated. It's certainly not what you would discuss with your hetro-mates down the pub on a Saturday night. But because of the nature of what I do for a living I am very aware that in reality it's a lot more common than most straight men care to admit.
For most straight men it's something they think of while masturbating, or having sex. It remains a very private fantasy. Others will experiment, they will occasionally feel a real need to have physical contact with another man, or simply to touch another man and his cock. Some men are very disturbed by this tiny part of their sexuality and it becomes a very big issue for them. These men often become very loud, very homophobic. So the next time you hear some guy shouting about 'queers' and all that, don't be too harsh on him just smile and politely tell him you understand what his problem is.
We are told at adolescence that it's NORMAL to have fantasies about other blokes while wanking. Many of us will have played the jerk-off games with other young men while still at school. The teenage years are a time of great curiosity. We hang around in groups. The mates we would like to be similar to will appear more attractive, and at a time of life when everything is interesting and nearly everyone is horny, this emotion can manifest itself as a stiff cock. So if it's ok when we are teenagers, what's wrong with it when we are older.
Most men are fascinated by their cocks, that's something we all have in common both gay and str8. When showering after the gym or swimming, or even when having a piss in a public toilet we all have a little peep. Even though there may not be any desire for actual contact it's as if the mind has taken a photo of that 'erotic image' and can flash back to have another look at any time. We may wonder about what type of sex the owner of the 'image' enjoys. We may get sexually aroused thinking about him shagging his wife. That doesn't mean we want to have a gay relationship with him, even though just before you 'cumm' you think about putting his cock in your mouth. As I said earlier I am basically gay that doesn't stop me from having occassional sex with women. I am often complemented on my performances.My usual reply is, 'well, not bad for a queer'That makes women feel good about themselves. Even a gay man fancies them and is so aroused by them that they have just had a good seeing to. For similar reasons gay men often fantasisie about having a str8 man.(......why do you think I'm writing this...)
I was always of the assumption that every-one was bisexual. For me it's like 80% gay, but for some it might be 99%. If you think your 100% gay tell me this. If you had to make a choice of having sex with Madonna or Bernard Manning. Who would you choose? If you think your 100% straight . Why are you reading this? But anyway a choice for you. You can have Will Carling or Margaret Thatcher. Who would you choose? ....and if your not sure just do what makes you happy. Do not lie to yourself, or to those close to you. If you do it will damage you....... I once had a very old man come to see me. Just a few months short of his 90th. birthday. He was not going to see that day, he was very ill. He had seen a small 'ad' of mine in a local newspaper. He had gone through his life always desiring men but had never had the courage to do anything about it. After a while chatting about the war and stuff he looked at me and said, 'I've left it too late. Haven't I'..............I wanted to lie. But I couldn't......... The next day I went out and done something that I would not usually have had the courage to do................ It had a profound effect on me.
About 93% of men will have some kind of sexual experience with another male at some point in their life ? yet only 8% will adapt to a gay lifestyle. Our sexuality can be thought of as similar to our DNA. Totally individual to us.Totally individual for us to explore............and enjoy.
Are you enjoying yours?
By, Seb Moran. Tantric Dominant gay escort London.
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