Well the group owner has stepped in and calmed things down, also removed the nasty posts, hopefully thats the end of it... Also it's the end of this weblog as I'm going to log out in a while and start up under the name of Sarduakar, hope anyone who has read this has found it useful/funny/hilarious/sad/melancholic, whatever if you've read it and it's made you think then good bye bye bye.... diary goodnight

Dear Diary... God there are some arses in this lifestyle.. after sorting things out with my ex Domme so we can at last be civil to each other someone else starts in on me and her and my sub..... just seems to be carping on for the sake of it, and causing dissension, and outright hostility, well I'm going to moderate any future posts to hell, if I'm not happy it's not going up......... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is doing my head in

Dear Diary, what a bitch of a day... My ex Domme came round so we sort out what was whose.... and it turns out it was allllll a mistake... jeez too late, I felt like a real Bastard and I had done nothing.. I left her house sure hat it was over a little over two weeks ago, I change/reform and become involved with someone else, and then she wants me back... I can't do that. I'm pissed and it's NYM. The choices are made and I am happy where I am but it's amazing what you find out later.... I hope next year is better, sleep tight Diary

Dear diary, Hmmmm for someone who doesn't want anything to do with the BDSM Lifestyle, my ex-Domme is keeping in touch with the groups, and writing snide posts, still i'm not going to get into a slanging match, those who know me know I'm better than that... still... managed to get together with my sub, how do I do it? she is 6 feet tall and drop dead georgeous, and she thinks that I was wasted as a sub, we had a productive talk, although it ended up with her over the bonnet of the car getting spanked for not doing as she was told.... well... thats about it for tonight. sleep tight Diary talk to you again soon

well diary, what a turn up for the books... dumped by a Domme, and a week later after much thought, and introspection, and late night long distance calls to those whose opinions matter to me, I find that I'm a Dom, and god it feels so right.. blow me down! Annnnddddd to make matters even more unbelievable, female sub with whom i've had many chats in the past, and who I find attractive intelligent, and in need of a Dom, has agreed to be mine.... what a week... The only downside is the Domme that said she didn't want me anymore has started a real charactor assasination on me in the main group I belong to, butttt I'm not going to stoop to that level, I will try to stay relaxed, and above all of that, I wouldn't mind but I have seen at least 8 glaring ommissions of the truth... still there you go, she bins me then gets upset when i become involved with someone else... ahh well diary time for bed, what a christmas day........

Well what a week, lost my collar wednesday, MzElektra decided that she wanted to leave the lifestyle but didn't think i should as it's to deep in my psyche, so we have broken up and i wish her well... hmmm should i advertise? or should i wait for all the Dommes to beat a path to my door.... slightly battered sub, body work needs attention, good runner once warmed up, free to a good home... lmao ooops a friend needs me later.....

Well we had a second munch :) and people turned up :) there were five, unfortunately one of them missed the rest of us :( Still on a brighter note we're getting people posting in both groups, but this reticence to express any views or emotions ooop north is making it hard. But.... i'm the eternal optimist and i'm hoping for better results next month... if we can decide on a date... night night diary

dear diary...

well less than a week to go and not very many people seem comitted to coming to the munch, i've set up an msn group to promote the munch.... i hope that will help. They say that cumbrians can be a dour bunch of buggers, and whoever said that must have known the yahoo group members lmao.... Well the glass is half fun, and regardless of how many come to the munch we're going clubbing afterward..... a reward beating maybe on the way... it's amazing what can make it worthwhile..........

Well here we are two weeks from the second munch, and it looks like more than 4 attending for the cumbria groups munch. It might be five or maybe even 6 or 7... damn this can be frustrating... 150 members and only 7 show any interest in a munch.... well time to start promoting it to the heavens. It's amazing, the most sparsely populated county in england and no one wants to get together to meet like minded people... well some of us do... i suppose we just have to give it time.... I think i need to find another angle as well to get people talking and posting in the group.